March 30, 2011 9pm

Tonight Jacob talked to our Bishop to see if there were any problems with the Doctors paperwork we had dropped off yesterday morning.  And he said he hadn't seen them come back yet... so he will check with his receptionist in the morning to see where she might have placed them.

I am confident she has them safe and sound waiting for the perfect time to give them to him, but pray for me if they are lost!  

Could that be what I need to learn in this process?  Patience???  Pray for me if I am in need of lessons on patience from the Lord, yikes!  Those are crazy, one could be put in all kinds of situations that test your patience in order to gain patience.  Oh dear, I hope that is not me.

I had visited with a friend today, that shared a story of a couple in our ward that was applying to serve a senior couple mission just this past year.  They completed all the necessary paperwork, interviewed with our Bishop, and during their interview with our Stake President he was guided by the spirit to NOT send them on a mission, but to give them a different assignment to serve in a branch in a very remote area of our stake.  They expressed when sharing their story that they had complete confirmation in their hearts at the time, that this decision was correct for them and felt very good about it... Wow!!

I can't imagine getting to that point in the process only to find out you are NOT going to serve a mission; that the Lord has other plans for you!!!  What does that take?  Flexibility? Faith??

Maybe an increase in Faith is the lesson I am supposed to learn?  I am pretty sure I don't have enough faith right now to watch Jacob walk out of a missionary interview to find out he would NOT be a missionary.  (even though this could happen for many many different reasons... we have been very presumptuous that he IS going on a mission I suppose).

I better get on my knees and get my nose in my scriptures and find out what I need to be doing to have more faith.  Because even as I evaluate it in my head, and write it down... I am sure I am falling short on faith.  And I know it's just me... because knowing my son the way I do, he would handle that situation just fine :)

I am so confused, I thought Mom's were sent with all the faith, and patience and flexibility for the whole family.  My Mom worked really hard at that, but made it look so easy... I am spoiled that way I guess.

What a roller coaster of emotions.  But I am so grateful to have the opportunity to have every up and down and turning and flipping and flopping one of them!  They are filled with blessings of a wonderful journey for our family.  I am just holding on tight, with white knuckles all the way!!!!


Sorry, this wasn't meant to be "Mom's emotional sharing time blog"... I will try to just stick to the facts and updates of the mission process.  Jacob would probably shoot me if he read all of this.